wow.

hello my friends. wow. really. wow. its been what 24 days since i wrote something here. sadness. im so sorry ive really just been busy with school & family. not so much with friends from the past & i dont know why but oh well, im happy & content so as of now nothing can rain on my parade except this:

MWF 12:00-1:10 Biology Lecture
MWF 1:20-2:50 Statistics
W 9:20-11:50 Biology Lab
T 9:20-11:50 Chemistry Lab
TTH 12:35-1:50 Chemistry Lecture
TTH 2:00-3:50 English (college writing) w/c means ESSAYS!

okay. if youre underestimating my schedule well screw you. s**t f**k!! its only been the 2nd week and im drowning in things to memorize. damn you BIO! i hate my life! [[im exaggerating.]] anyway, i like school though. its my only time to get away from prison. if you know me well enough then you'd know what im talking about. i love the fact that my mind is so busy that i tend to forget the things that before i couldnt forget & they just gave me tears everytime i was by myself along with my "emo" playlist. well guess what, new year new me. [[as much as id wanna think actually.]] silly me.

my body is sore. & if youre a little green minded beezy over there no im not sore cuz of what youre thinking honey. im tired because of the work that ive really been doing for the last two weeks. no sleep at all. its funny because i would have never imagined myself this serious with my school work. i guess i really want my freedom & so i strive to do better in a pace that's really strenuous for my body. i know its bad but hey its life, you gotta tough it up once in a while.

2008. hmm. i feel like im a really strong person now. i know how to deal with things maturely & gracefully as i can. kudos for me! =) like regardless if theres a lesbian bitch in the way, well i dont just pull her hair you know, [[*** if youre in all my damn classes i bet you damn know who im talking about.]] i just walk away calmly. DRAMA just never avoids me but simply i know now how to avoid it. ohmygoshh.. joy.

life is great. i appreciate it now more than ever.

im really really thankful. for many reasons actually...
1. him. he loves me. i love him. thick & thin. [[like literally]] good & bad. still inseperable.
1.5 him in far far far away land. im still hoping something is gonna make this "bestfriend" thing better.
2. him up there. he watches over me & so i feel safe.
3. buchachee. he wipes away my exhaustion everyday.
4. my lil brother from another mother. he STAYED even if we were apart.
5. my beeches from GAYWARD. these females got my back no matter what. EVERYDAY.
5.5. A VERY FEW FRIENDS FROM THE PAST[[less than five.]] that i darenot say who b/c im not sure & HA! drama is gonna come with it i just know it. prove me wrong. & if you arent individually listed in this list then youre probably under this category.
6. my grandmammy. just cuz she loves me.
7. food & shelter. they keep me alive & kickin.
8. past. because of you my present is even better & my future looks brighter.
9. my ipod. keeps me sane every minute of everyday.
10. LOVE. i see it everywhere & it gives me hope.

whew. those listed above are really the people & things i treasure. a few but im glad its only this much because im already overwhelmed with getting my edumacation. feel me. haha.

well i gotta get back to studying. ill say more stories when i can.. night everyone.

lots of love & hunny. =)