it sucks.

"dont burn bridges on the way."
"its been burned."

one of the very few conversations i have with my used to be bestfriend. honestly i know perfectly well what happened to my relationship with that person and its really understandable. i try to act like it doesnt affect me but honestly it does. A LOT. ive invested so much emotions to this person for about 3 years now and damn. it sucks that it might end this way. we dont talk as much as before and omg is it draining to even think about the stuff we dont do together anymore.

i guess cuz my relationship with my bestfriend didnt work out so well that i lost trust in my other friends as well. i dont believe in what they say to me now because in the end i know nothing will really come out of it. and btw im not assuming, its a fact clearly proven in a span of 6 months.

f*cked up so called friends would only call you if they need you. what the freaks is that.

ive been through so much shit lately that damn, the one person. that one person who is number one on your speed dial. that one person who knows you supposedly in and out. that one person who is almost your soulmate. that one person who you could spend the rest of your life beside you is like damn. disappointing.

just because BUSY with people & school maybe? bullshit.

i really dont wanna care anymore. im tired. exhausted. sad. disappointed.

youre still very important to me but i really cant keep this thing going on longer. i might just have to burn our bridge too. just like everyone else who have screwed me over & you know what those people did to me. maybe you'd think not but from what has been going on lately, its hard to say otherwise.

like i said before.

DISTANCE=my only answer.

physically we have it. but emotionally, i dont. im letting go of this friendship & its future. ill hold on to the good memories because that i cant just throw away. youre a big part of my life you know but it cant go on like this. seriously.

thanks for everything. as much as i dont wanna think about you day & night i do. but ill try not to anymore because its painful.

i hope she'll treat you better than i can & will ever be even just as a friend. i hope you find someone to replace me or maybe you already have.

im being emo right now and i hope this changes somehow. but definitely not in the near future.

take care always...