siiighs. its a hairflip.

Hey mii amiigos. Its been awhile since the last tiimE I updated thiis. I've just been busy that's aLL.. & I know that you understand what I'm going through. COLLEGE. Its a hard job. NURSING. Makes it even harder. Woah. Can't even imagine being a doctor or something.

Let me set the setting first before you enjoy reading about what's happenin in my liife right now..
>>Its 2:18am riight now & I'm bloggiing through my beloved sidekiick.
>>@ union ciity sleepin at my jackie love's house. wiit sexy yana baby in between us.
>>3 girls in one bed. Lets leave it at that.

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So where do I begin. Well lets just start with the beginning of this week.
Finals week.
Saturday: I got tipsy. Because if you're a true filipino you would have been watching manny pacqiuao knocking out marquez. It wasn't as exciting as I expected it to be but the fact that pacman won made it all better. I guess filipinos just have great boxing skills. Hehe. So it was a party @ my godmother's house in haystackk nearby my school. It was funnn. My whole fam was there with my sissys, rents, chachee, granmps, other family amiigos & my husband of course. ((Yes from now on, I call bee my husband. B/c that's exactly where its gonna lead anyway. =] mark it down. 10-25-2015 bitch don't get it twisted. Ill expand later.)) Soo, played guitarr hero & all other games.. 3am. Night ended.

Sunday: woke up at 1pm. Panic attack. Didn't study yet for bio final the ff day. Siiighhs. Study study study. ((I love the fact that my education is on top of everything right now. B/c once I achieve this nigga I'm unstoppable. & ur gonna regret ever being on my bad side b/c you aint gonna be livin the life like I would be. Mark my words. Haters keep bringing me down just to pull themselves up but in reality, they're just digging themselves deeper down towards hell b/c all they do is hate while I'm succeeding in life. so bye bitches.)) Anyway.. So I finally went to church. What a great feeling. I always knew god was the only BESTfriend I needed. ((In a span of 6 months. I lost my so called bestfriends. Then I guess they weren't really my bestfriends because they don't even know me well enough to know how to deal with me in good times and bad. Whatever. Its a hairflip.))

Monday: bio final day. Hyped up, redbull on circulation. Meen was I nervous. Thank god its over & I think I did good. =] riight after my test I went straight home but I drove my husbands G35 first. Fuuun. Meen I love that car. & I love the man who owns that car. <3

Tuesday: woke up at 11 b/c I didn't have final that day.. Finished up my english portfolio & bonded with my little brother for a moment. Then left my house around 1:30 so I could turn it my portfolio before 3pm. My husband swooped me up at oakland bart with our two puppies. My gosh how I love them. =] but they're a little untrained so man were they rowdy & too excited. Hehehe.. Met up wit yana and christian made a cameo appearance. Around 3 met up with jackie loves & robyn then we ate at bronco's pizza. Hmmm yummm. I ate a whole plate dude. I'm only 90lbs and seriously no matter how much I eat I'm still not gaining anything. Target weight=105. Used to be 110 but I figure it was unachievable ever. After we ate I went to the dorms and studied for stats. Then the surprise of the day came. An old friend called me?! Wow. Finally. Ima name this person here X ok? Since that's what I'm labeled to this person now anyway. Not friend, not bestfriend but X so let me call this person X too. I'm not gonna go into details and whatnot b/c it will definitely just make me furious. I love this person to death and this isn't ever going to change but I just can't stand feeling so meaningless in X's life. I thought that we had a strong enough foundation to withstand anything that comes between us but once again. Another friend lost.

Wednesday: stats final in 12 hours. Whew. Have a lot of emotions in my heart. Maybe cuz of a bad convo with one of the most important people in my life. But nvm that. it just makes me sad. (I listened to you gloria..) I'm not tired at all. And right now, its already 3:06am.

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So there. Spilled all my thoughts. I feel better now.

I can finally go to sleep.

I can't wait to see some old faces this spring break. Parttayy woot woot. =]

I'm an extremely loving person. I'd rather love than hate but people nowadays just don't understand what love really means. They think they do but in fact they don't.

I love almost every person I meet in this world b/c each individual contributes to my personality & my reaction to life. So thanks a lot friend, lover, acquaintance, family, sibling, stranger, bestfriends, girlfriends, etc etc.

& I dislike every immature, conniving, manipulating, cold hearted, lying, backstabbing bitch/asshole in this world. Leave me be & just live your own life.

Thanks for dropping by, leave me a comment and I will definitely be grateful for it. Just no haters please. Go away.
Ill update soon.

Peace & love always.
Nessa Blanche Olayvar Ramos